Choosing Glee

I saw a book at the library that just called out to me, sure it was written for teenagers, maybe even for girls but hey you gotta start somewhere. The book is called Choosing Glee and it is by Jenna Ushkowitz. The subtitle is: 10 rules to finding inspiration, happiness, and the real you. I want that, that was the first step. I admit that I am unhappy, uninspired and not the real me. I am a cardboard cut out of my formerly happy self and if this young girl even had one rule that could help me then I figured I'd give it a try, after all the book isn't that long and it is full of pictures. But the real draw is that it is written like a journal and had quizzes and homework assignments in it. So I'm diving in, I'm ready to meet the real me and who knows maybe I'll learn a thing or two.

The first big assignment is brainstorming. She is challenging me to dream a little. This has been tough for me because I'm usually a realist, but maybe that is my way of avoiding disappointment. In any case, dreaming has been difficult for me since I've had my hopes dashed before. But if first you don't succeed, try not to mess it up the next time around!

Time to put on my dreaming cap.......

I see myself making a deference in people's lives, I see me making money speaking to people and teaching them about vulnerability and strength and how to communicate. I am selling books and I am signing them in a huge bookstore with a long lime of people that have brought their children to meet me and to listen to me read and tell my story. I am surrounded by people that appreciate what I have to share and can relate to my story of wanting to be treated fairly, or wanting to belong. I take my struggles, my failures and my hard lessons learned and I expose myself to them and they see themselves and they achieve success with me. This thing called life is a shared experience and my sharing brings me more life than if I hold it all in. And that brings me peace and I hope it starts "the change in the world that I want to be."